Wow … its been a long time …

Yeah, I’ve been busy  … but honestly? I’ve been hiding.

So what have I been hiding from? Myself mostly.

This is the place I pour out my inner-most thoughts … this is the place my soul is on display for all to see.

Scary.

Scary stuff.

So what have I been doing?

The last 6 months have been full of turmoil.

I went to Phuket on holidays with friends, and came face-to-face, up-close-and-personal with a friend’s addiction and her inability to face it. And I did one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do … I have walked away … I can no longer ‘enable’ her addictions and behaviour.

My uncle’s wife went to court for his murder (Suzy, your predictions are incredibly accurate). She’s copped a guilty plea … my god … what she did … Was he an asshole? Probably. Did he deserve what she did? No one deserves that.

My world at work was turned upside down when I was given 3 months to pull together an international conference – just what I need – crazy pressure because I’m not stressed enough obviously.

An ex-lover lost his job – again – and turns up on my door step – again. I close the door on our friendship … I can no longer enable his behaviour.

So how have I coped?

The last 6 months have been an exercise in setting boundaries. My solar plexus chakra has definitely been getting a work out. My self-worth, self-esteem and self-empowerment have all been copping a bashing.

But somehow, I’ve managed to come out of all of this … a little dishevelled, a little battered … but I’ve survived.

I’ve learnt that sometimes we all need to crawl into a cave … to take time to heal.

So I’m back, I think.

I’ve missed you.